whofrownedthisface: (the fuck is that)
whofrownedthisface ([personal profile] whofrownedthisface) wrote in [community profile] bigapplesauce2014-11-15 07:19 pm

do not taunt happy fun ball [open to all]

The sound of the Doctor's arrival in the Ramble ought to be much more catastrophic than it is. Much more fitting for a crashlanding than the anti-climactic whump of a bird-boned body hitting the ground, followed by the collectively stunned silence of park and Doctor alike. Quickly broken by a convulsive intake of breath and couple of coughs, as the Doctor rolls into a slightly less crumpled heap, recovering from having the breath knocked out of him on impact. His attitude is that of someone who has just lived an entirely foreseen consequence, and would absolutely do it again given the opportunity.

He had taken every precaution, hadn't he? Well, every precaution except not seeking out the rift. And he hadn't even done anything to it yet. Not much, anyway. Just some preliminary prodding. The Doctor gets up, pats himself down gingerly, an inventory of bodily integrity as well as pocket contents. All the important things, screwdriver, yo-yo, and--yes, chalk. The geography of the area is right for rocky outcroppings, and the Doctor means to find one and write on it for awhile. First order of business: • Do not prod the rift.
theoldgirl: (inscrutable)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-11-23 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
Unsurprisingly, the TARDIS saw him coming. More than that, she sensed his arrival, which was so sudden that she'd barely had the chance to realize this might be the help he had promised, and no time to rally some sort of assistance from this side of the rift. And then he'd simply dropped out of the rift, worryingly lacking his own TARDIS. She was just about to go collect him, because she is never going to let herself be separated from a Doctor again in this universe, when she saw that Daine had matters well in hand and she could simply wait.

Now, her doors swing open on his quite formal request to reveal her warm bright console room, though rather blocked by her frowning human form on the threshold. Somehow she manages to look both chiding and utterly sad, or perhaps that's largely the general air of resignation she is exuding. "Oh, Doctor," she sighs, and then has nothing else to say.
wildmage_daine: (hound happy)

[personal profile] wildmage_daine 2014-11-23 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
Well in paw, anyway. While the Doctor knocks, Daine glances between him and the door, ready to sit on him if necessary. It really would be her pleasure. But it seems he is who he said he was - she honestly doesn't know if she should be relieved or disappointed - and she huffs out a little sigh before wandering around the corner to nose her way through the strap of her bag, where her clothes are stuffed.

"Hullo, TARDIS," she offers once she's back by the door. Her tone is a little subdued in deference to the ship's expression, but she adds a friendly tail wag. Then she glances between the ship and the Doctor again, wondering if she ought to just head back to the base to change rather than interrupt whatever's happening, here.
theoldgirl: (downcast)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-11-23 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
She remembers the upsetting and alien distance between them too, in fact she feels it again now, looking at him without innately understanding how he came to be. And so she doesn't quite reach out telepathically, not yet. Instead her brows knit together more tightly at his hurried and frankly superfluous explanation, as though it isn't obvious that he miscalculated, that he wasn't careful enough.

When he mentions hope, her expression changes to something like grief. She really had been hoping, after meeting him; she'd known it might take a very long time, of course, she has no way of telling the time differential between their universes and he was likely to get distracted, but his offer of help was a sliver of hope. Now he is here, as she'd dreaded, and she is just so tired. But that isn't what this Doctor needs to hear. "I know," she says simply, and then uncrosses her arms and steps aside, briefly glancing down at the dog. "Come inside, then. Daine wants to get changed."
wildmage_daine: (neutral - humoring you)

[personal profile] wildmage_daine 2014-11-23 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Daine seems to be missing something. If the Doctor's just arrived (which she'd figured he must have, if he needed directions to the TARDIS), why are he and the TARDIS talking as if they had some sort of plan in mind? When the Doctor looks to her, she puts her ears back in surprise. What sort of input is he angling for, exactly? 'I found him scribbling on a rock' is all she could offer without disparaging his manners, and when she sees the TARDIS's expression, she decides it's probably best to say nothing on the matter. Whatever the plan was, it doesn't look as if it was a success.

She lets the Doctor step inside first, but makes a point of pausing alongside the TARDIS and leaning her furry shoulder against her leg in a bracing sort of way. The ship looks as if she could use the support. Then she trots off to the little side-room she's been using to change.

It's only the work of a minute for her to get back into her human shape and pull on her clothes. Slinging her bag over her shoulder, she heads back to the console room. Part of her thinks longingly of just edging out the door while the two of them are occupied with one another, but that would be cowardly, and she wants to make sure the TARDIS is all right before she goes.

"Hullo again," she says, looking at the Doctor as if she's a parent who isn't sure she approves of her child's prom date.
theoldgirl: (arguing)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-11-23 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
It would have been nice to hear an approving word on her interior, while he is clearly inspecting it, as she is still quite proud of herself for designing it after he destroyed the last one. And she can't exactly see his thoughts at the moment, but just as she is radiating resigned sorrow, so he is projecting displeasure loud enough for her to hear. It would be enough to set her on edge without him rounding on Daine and then on her.

At which point her carefully neutral expression turns unmistakably unimpressed and cold. Wonderful, another one who thinks he should get consulted on her independent personal relationships. "I think you will find that you have very little say in whom I choose to befriend and what sort of assistance I choose to offer them. It is one of the many things you are going to have to get used to, now." Having sufficiently made her point, she turns to Daine with a slightly kinder expression. "Thank you for bringing him to me. I won't let him out until he understands this universe better."
wildmage_daine: (mischievous)

[personal profile] wildmage_daine 2014-11-24 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
"You're welcome," she says to the TARDIS, figuring she'll address the more reasonable of the two, first. With a faint smile, she adds, "And let me know if you'd like me to take a big shape and sit on him. I've already told him that's what he'd get from me if he vexed you, so he has been warned."

She shifts her focus back to the Doctor, and if he thought she was smug as a cat, that's nothing to how she looks, now. Rather than correct the misapprehension that she lives here, she just says, "I expect we'll be seeing more of each other." Maybe he'll even be a bit less obnoxious next time she encounters him.

Well. She has dogs to walk, and it'd probably be best if she just left these two to their own devices. She backs towards the door with a cheerful, "We'll have to go flying again soon," to the TARDIS - Goddess, she'll probably need the break after dealing with this one for any length of time - and a more pointed, "Polar bear shape, see if I don't," to the Doctor.
theoldgirl: (haughty)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-11-26 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
The TARDIS responds to the offer of flying with a grateful nod, though she's not thinking of it in terms of needing a respite from this Doctor. At least not yet. It isn't as though blunt and impudent incarnations are exceptionally rare, but she is uncomfortable with him to begin with and for once she has reason to care how he treats others.

So his sarcastic dismissal of her friend is anything but acceptable and her expression hardens before she even turns back to him. Daine at least has the good sense to understand that she's better off not being here, and not to take it to heart. She makes sure to close and lock the doors behind the girl and then levels the Doctor with another judgmental look while discordant sounds ring down from the ceiling all around him.

"I understand that you must be very rattled," she begins with forced patience, being plenty rattled herself, "but I will not have you belittle my friends. I refuse to endure strife within my walls, in addition to all the strife outside."
theoldgirl: (downcast)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-11-27 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
She doesn't bother suppressing an impatient sigh at his meek denial; they both know it's nothing more than an habitual excuse. But what he says next unexpectedly shakes her to the core and all the displeased sounds stop at once as her face falls. She has changed, to him? That's what he thinks of this, a face to speak with makes her unrecognizable? She's caught between being aghast at his blindness and feeling like she's failed him gravely, again. Through all his tumultuous changes and lives, she is supposed to be his one constant, the one thing he can always rely on to be the same. But now he's lost in a new universe and can't even feel at home with her.

In the end, she can't seem to put words to this at all, so she doesn't, addressing his question instead. Though it isn't much easier. "I... am afraid for you," she admits, softer and more hesitant now. "More than I am at home. I can't see what you will do, what will happen to you outside. And the rift may take you away at any moment. When I arrived, your tenth was here, but I couldn't find him for days. And then, when your eighth arrived, the rift took him and your eighth was immediately incarcerated by one of the two factions monitoring the rift. You were lost to me for two weeks until someone rescued you." On some level, she is aware that this isn't how she would behave or feel in their respective home universes. She always has faith that he'll be fine, and two weeks should be nothing to her. But the constant anxiety the rift is causing her has worn her down significantly, and she has no way of dealing with it alone. Now she doesn't quite look at him, and when she speaks again it sounds like grief. "I need you here. I will let you leave, but I will hope that you won't want to."
theoldgirl: (side)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-11-30 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Part of her wants to argue that he wouldn't be useless at all, that there is plenty of investigating and analyzing he could do from in here, and already has done while she'd refused to let his younger self out a while ago. But he is right and she knows it; he hardly ever solves a problem from inside her console room. It's just not how either of them operate, and they would both only become even more restless and testy than this universe warrants. However, knowing all that doesn't soothe her anxiety in the slightest.

She does notice his attempt at reassurance, and although she can't take much solace in it, she can appreciate the sentiment. So she allows him to redirect her attention, and brings up all the information she has on Romac and the rebels on the screen; their locations, known members, methods and goals. She folds her hands behind her back and steps closer, wearing a very small sad smile at the continued dissonance weighing on them. "You may still use the console, you know. In fact, it is preferred. Communicating with this form is enjoyable, but it isn't very efficient."
theoldgirl: (arguing)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-12-06 05:27 pm (UTC)(link)
It is fairly irritating to hear him dismiss the organization that had imprisoned and nearly killed Gabriel (although that wasn't part of the information she just gave him in any detail) and that had held his younger self prisoner rather successfully as well (though omitting any mention of Miss Pollard's involvement due to her profound irrelevance). But it's starting to seem very likely that this incarnation simply disparages everyone, regardless of how interesting or not he finds them. A valve in the console noisily releases a huff of steam, which only intensifies at his question.

"At the moment I am not housing anyone besides you, I only have visitors," she replies stiffly, irked but not in the mood for another argument. "Daine doesn't live here either, she has quarters in the rebel base. But I have so far managed to remain undetected by both factions." Which is to say, she'd prefer if he didn't attract too much attention here, as being coveted and stolen by either party would be exceedingly troublesome and inconvenient, more so than usual.
theoldgirl: (shocked)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-12-07 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
He really hasn't been this brazenly curmudgeonly in a very long time, she thinks; at least as long ago as his sixth life. And apparently he's still not quite done arguing about her ability and right to have relationships of her own. "What do you ever want with your strays?" she counters, arching an eyebrow. She is very much prepared to give him a comprehensive list of all the ways his friendships inconvenience her, but a sudden and intense spike in rift activity puts a stop to that.

And then her sensors show her a terrible picture. Warning lights spring wildly into action on the console, and the Cloister Bell tolls as the other Doctor's presence elsewhere in the park flickers and then disappears into the rift's horrible chaos. If her expression turns into pained dismay to match her fear and horror, she doesn't notice.
theoldgirl: (D:)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-12-07 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
The TARDIS is fighting to hang onto the Doctor's bio-signature for as long as she can, but that only means she can feel it dispersing within the rift's vicious maelstrom, and an unearthly grievous wail rings through the console room. It's this Doctor's telepathic contact that finally pierces her feelings of panic and loss and she opens herself up to it unreservedly, desperately clinging to his presence both mentally and, as she finds when she eventually drags her focus back to the console room, physically.

"The rift took you," she says like a sob, voice thick with grief. "I can't tell if you survived." Her fingertips dig into the fabric of his sleeves and she looks at him as though there was anything he could do about it. There must be; he is the Doctor and he mends her hurts even when he can't help anyone else.
theoldgirl: (side)

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-12-14 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
His helplessness is far too obvious to miss, but it isn't a disappointment so much as a pain shared and therefore halved. She knows all too well that there isn't anything either of them can do about the rift, and no way of knowing the fate of anyone who gets pulled through the rift, aside from clinging to fragile hope. No, what she needs is to not be alone with her despair. For all that none of these Doctors are properly hers, every time this happens it feels like a part of her is being torn away.

But she really isn't alone, she can tell, turning her focus away from the rift and fully towards him, seeking out every bit of age-old, safe familiarity in his mind. It's all still there, underneath the ultimately meaningless quirks of any incarnation, and she responds to it with warmth and recognition, though tinged with fresh pain and anxiety. And although she can generally derive very little comfort from hugs, this one is gladly accepted. She eases into his arms and rests her head against his chest, her breath calming as gradually as the warning lights on the console.

"I'm sorry," she manages at length, voice only wavering a little. "You are welcome here. You must never doubt that." The other Doctor is gone, now all that is left for her to do is to take care of him. That's all there ever has been. "And you needn't interact with this form if it unsettles you."
theoldgirl: (surprised)

does he also crave that mineral

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-12-21 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not so difficult anymore to understand and share his emotions, now that she's in closer contact with him. Most of it is so familiar; the displacement and anxiety, the feeling of utter loss at their alienation. He bristles at everything because he doesn't know what else to do. And perhaps the other incarnations of his were able to enjoy her humanoid form because there was no alienation, they could simply return to their usual rapport, her form quickly accepted as a mere extension of their bond rather than another expression of the gulf between them.

What he's feeling she understands, but what he's saying is harder to follow. "You really are disturbed by my ability to have friends," she realizes, stepping back a little from their embrace to look up at him in surprise, though keeping her hands on his chest as an additional point of contact. Now she can tell his disgruntlement doesn't stem from possessiveness, as she'd thought and resented, but from the same feeling of uncertainty and being uprooted, of suddenly not knowing his place. How absolutely dreadful. His place is always the same, always here. "My functions have not changed at all, nor have yours," she reassures him. "I am simply extending my horizons, something I think you will appreciate once you have settled in. You are still my pilot and I am still your ship," she finishes, trying a very small but affectionate smile. Though, how is her having friends a role reversal? As this occurs to her, her brow furrows in concern. "Are you alone, back in your universe?"
Edited 2014-12-21 23:08 (UTC)
theoldgirl: (kiss)

and being married to a time ship isn't an emotion

[personal profile] theoldgirl 2014-12-24 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
Well, that certainly helps to explain his recklessness in dealing with the rift. A companion may have possibly been able to convince him to put a little more care into his plan. Though she supposes he has something of a point; at least nobody is stranded in his version of her, forcing her to take care of them while she will be struggling more than enough to cope with the rift and the Doctor's disappearance. More importantly, now she knows to look out for the brooding and loneliness he typically develops sooner or later, without a friend. Not that she's entirely sure what she could do about it, since he isn't all that comfortable with her humanoid form yet.

But this worry at least isn't allowed to fester, as his gratitude is very heartening and reassuring to feel. It seems like a step in the right direction towards mending this shaken bond of theirs, and she returns it with affection. And she has no trouble at all unwinding his statement, her smile growing a little warmer. "That is very true," she replies and, after a moment's consideration, stands up on her toes to place a kiss on his cheek.

Then she disengages, stepping back and folding her hands. This all feels so raw and delicate and fragile, fraught with desperation and dissonance, that she's unnaturally afraid of taking a wrong step. It's bound to make her irritable again later, but right now, so shortly after the loss of the other Doctor, she can't risk pushing him away. So instead she tries to change the topic, though she's not very apt at it. "What now, dear?" Deciding that is certainly one of his functions.