Johnny shudders under Gabriel's hands, his lips parted, gasping softly at the breath on his neck, the words murmured against his skin. Fuck, this is absolutely inopportune. He wants a lot of things, right fucking now.
"I-" He presses his upper back against the wall, bracing himself so he can arch his hips forward, hands slipping down to Gabe's ass. "I need a rain check. The fucking minute I get Dig out of my room. Jesus fucking Christ." He pulls himself flush against Gabe and kisses him hard, desperate. The clock is ticking and he has to get back to work, which only serves to make this hotter.
"Wait." He breaks away, moves his hands to Gabe's head, fingers tangling in his hair. He rests his forehead against Gabe's, closing his eyes briefly.
"Tell - tell me-" His breath hitches. He clings to Gabe, clings to this moment, terrified to lose it. That night Gabe told him he loved him, and he'd panicked and he'd fucked everything up, it all boiled down to the relentless tune of I am not good enough and I have nothing to give. He still hasn't forgiven himself for that, and it still haunts him.
But today he did give Gabriel something, and it was unexpected and it means something, more than Johnny can fully comprehend. He did something right and he wants, he actually wants-
"Tell me you love me," he whispers, feeling stupid but not enough to stop himself. "Like you did the first time, when I didn't - I - I want to hear you say it. I want to."
It would be funny, considering Gabe only just said it, but there's a huge difference between that and what happened the first time, how critical that was, Gabe realizing he meant it. And Johnny missed it.
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"I-" He presses his upper back against the wall, bracing himself so he can arch his hips forward, hands slipping down to Gabe's ass. "I need a rain check. The fucking minute I get Dig out of my room. Jesus fucking Christ." He pulls himself flush against Gabe and kisses him hard, desperate. The clock is ticking and he has to get back to work, which only serves to make this hotter.
"Wait." He breaks away, moves his hands to Gabe's head, fingers tangling in his hair. He rests his forehead against Gabe's, closing his eyes briefly.
"Tell - tell me-" His breath hitches. He clings to Gabe, clings to this moment, terrified to lose it. That night Gabe told him he loved him, and he'd panicked and he'd fucked everything up, it all boiled down to the relentless tune of I am not good enough and I have nothing to give. He still hasn't forgiven himself for that, and it still haunts him.
But today he did give Gabriel something, and it was unexpected and it means something, more than Johnny can fully comprehend. He did something right and he wants, he actually wants-
"Tell me you love me," he whispers, feeling stupid but not enough to stop himself. "Like you did the first time, when I didn't - I - I want to hear you say it. I want to."
It would be funny, considering Gabe only just said it, but there's a huge difference between that and what happened the first time, how critical that was, Gabe realizing he meant it. And Johnny missed it.