Jay opens his eyes, staring up at Tim in disbelief. What? What?
He had no idea - well speaking of lies, that's one, yeah he had some idea there might be something, just maybe though, he wasn't trying to-
Well, what was he trying to do?
He wants to defend himself, defend his actions, but he can't, he can only stare, gutted, realizing that once again he fucked up.
"She's..." The revelation is too much. He wants to be glad to hear it. She's okay. The one person he wanted to make it out did. No thanks to him. But she did make it.
"Tim, I didn't..." Can't finish that, either. Not now, not still pinned under this demon cat's paw. There's another question now, bubbling up and he can't ignore it, he can't, this has always been his problem, hasn't it? He can't just ignore something when there are doubts. It gnaws at him slow and unyielding. Even when he tries with everything he has to shut it out. Quit. No more.
"How long did you know?" he asks, his voice dull, hollow.
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Jay opens his eyes, staring up at Tim in disbelief. What? What?
He had no idea - well speaking of lies, that's one, yeah he had some idea there might be something, just maybe though, he wasn't trying to-
Well, what was he trying to do?
He wants to defend himself, defend his actions, but he can't, he can only stare, gutted, realizing that once again he fucked up.
"She's..." The revelation is too much. He wants to be glad to hear it. She's okay. The one person he wanted to make it out did. No thanks to him. But she did make it.
"Tim, I didn't..." Can't finish that, either. Not now, not still pinned under this demon cat's paw. There's another question now, bubbling up and he can't ignore it, he can't, this has always been his problem, hasn't it? He can't just ignore something when there are doubts. It gnaws at him slow and unyielding. Even when he tries with everything he has to shut it out. Quit. No more.
"How long did you know?" he asks, his voice dull, hollow.