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Seth ([personal profile] powerdealer) wrote in [community profile] bigapplesauce 2015-06-06 08:17 pm (UTC)

Seth looks up as Daniel steps forward, a glimmer of hope that's Daniel's going to prove him wrong after all. A glimmer almost immediately crushed, and Seth has to look away at the brutal honesty of it.

There's nothing aggressive in Daniel's tone, no condemnation, but the words still sting. It's like Daniel's picking him apart, taking away all the shells that Seth's built up to protect himself. It hurts because it's true, and Seth can't conjure up any sort of defence for it.

Even as Daniel's saying that he doesn't see Seth as poorly as he does himself, Seth still feels attacked. Even if all he's doing is pointing out the ways Seth has been unfair to Daniel, Seth feels defensive. And when he gets defensive, he gets angry. Because whatever Daniel thinks he's doing, he's certainly not making Seth feel any better about himself.

"Yeah well I can't bloody help that, can I?" he asks, his tone nowhere near neutral. "That's what it means to be insecure. Why shouldn't I assume people will realise I'm a shit person? If I thought the sun shone outta my arse, then I'd also be surprised if people didn' feel the same, wouldn't I?"

At some point during this rant, he seems to have gotten to his feet. "Just because you make me want to be a better person doesn't mean I can be. And if you think it's so unfair of me to be scared of what people think of me then why are you even here?"

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