"It's more like, uh - an entity." Is that even the right word for it? It's beyond his conception no matter what form he's in, even while on a whole other plane. "It's sentient to an extent, it has moods and it - experiments with us when it feels like it. But it doesn't really lend itself to being understood."

Either it doesn't want to or it's just entirely on another level, and neither option is all that consoling.