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bigapplesauce2015-09-11 10:35 pm
deadeyedchild) wrote in bigapplesauce2015-09-11 10:35 pm
remind yourself you made it [closed]
It's been a couple days now since Jay narrowly avoided another gruesome death, and he's starting to feel normal again. He's been avoiding Tim for the most part, and for no real good reason - just embarrassment at how much he fell apart, as if that's something Tim's never witnessed before.
It's stupid.
It's been even longer since Tim impulse-bought him Plan 9 From Outer Space, but that's what's now sticking in his head. That was nice. A little overture of normal friendship behavior. Tim's been doing a lot of that lately, asking Jay about himself, getting him things... patching him up isn't very normal but it was nice of him. What's Jay done?
So it is that on his way home from work he finds himself making an impulsive purchase of his own.
This is, also, possibly, stupid.
He doesn't exactly have a lot of loose cash hanging around, even with Aziraphale's generous wages. So much of it will always go into food and transit moneyand the stash in his sock drawer for tapes, just in case, for old time's sake, there's not much left over for non-necessities.
But this might be constrewn as a necessity.
It's something worthwhile, at least.
He lets himself into the apartment building, aggressively not regretting the purchase. He rides up the elevator alone, the musty scent of Aziraphale's shop still stuck in his nostrils. He hope it doesn't linger too noticeably on him.
He gets out on his floor and heads straight to Tim's place.
May as well just get this over with. Maybe Tim will think it's stupid. Maybe he'll like it. It'll get the reaction it gets.
He knocks.
It's stupid.
It's been even longer since Tim impulse-bought him Plan 9 From Outer Space, but that's what's now sticking in his head. That was nice. A little overture of normal friendship behavior. Tim's been doing a lot of that lately, asking Jay about himself, getting him things... patching him up isn't very normal but it was nice of him. What's Jay done?
So it is that on his way home from work he finds himself making an impulsive purchase of his own.
This is, also, possibly, stupid.
He doesn't exactly have a lot of loose cash hanging around, even with Aziraphale's generous wages. So much of it will always go into food and transit money
But this might be constrewn as a necessity.
It's something worthwhile, at least.
He lets himself into the apartment building, aggressively not regretting the purchase. He rides up the elevator alone, the musty scent of Aziraphale's shop still stuck in his nostrils. He hope it doesn't linger too noticeably on him.
He gets out on his floor and heads straight to Tim's place.
May as well just get this over with. Maybe Tim will think it's stupid. Maybe he'll like it. It'll get the reaction it gets.
He knocks.
no subject
He pours coffee for himself and for Tim and carries it over to the little table, keeping quiet while Tim continues to fiddle around. He doesn't say much else, alternately watching and tooling around on his phone, and trying to cling hard to this feeling, the sense of normalcy and contentment. Hanging out, having a good time. This isn't going to last forever, he knows that too well, but he's going to grip onto it for as long as he can. Try to remember how it is, for those times when shit falls apart.