"I mean he's fine," Johnny says quickly, mentally kicking himself for making it sound so dire. "He's getting better. Physically. The rift really tore him up, but he's healing."

He looks down at his coffee for a moment. He's not sure how much of this he should share, but if he doesn't tell Seth, who will? He doubts Gabriel will rush to say anything. He doesn't even know if Gabriel realizes how much Seth cares about him.

"The thing is," he says carefully, "he wasn't trying to escape or anything." He swallows, hard, his throat suddenly thick. No no no. Not going to let this hit, not in front of Seth. He draws a breath and releases it slowly, calming back down.

"He wanted the rift to destroy him," he says. "He was trying to kill himself."