Seth gets to relax for only about a moment, but already at the 'physically', Seth has strong misgivings, and they just get worse from there.
When Johnny drops the bombshell, all Seth can do is stare. For him, the news seem to come out of nowhere, and he's completely floored by it.
He swallows and looks down at his coffee again, trying to absorb this. He didn't even really know what had happened until now - his manner of return had definitely implied Rift, and they'd figured he left intentionally. Until now, he hadn't thought much about what Gabriel had left to do, or whether messing with the Rift was even part of his plan, or just something that happened. The idea that he'd been trying to go home had crossed Seth's mind. The idea that he was trying to end his life had not.
It's hard to reconcile this with his experience with Gabe. Seth is not unfamiliar with being suicidal, not at all, and you'd think having been there himself, he'd be able to recognise it in a friend, but apparently not. That idea that he had so completely missed this fills him with guilt. And the thought that Gabe hadn't come to him for help kind of hurts, though he'd never admit it, and it actually takes him a little by surprise that he should feel that way.
Part of him knows there's no use thinking like this, but it's difficult to stop himself. He forgets to even answer Johnny, though his demeanor probably speaks for itself.
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When Johnny drops the bombshell, all Seth can do is stare. For him, the news seem to come out of nowhere, and he's completely floored by it.
He swallows and looks down at his coffee again, trying to absorb this. He didn't even really know what had happened until now - his manner of return had definitely implied Rift, and they'd figured he left intentionally. Until now, he hadn't thought much about what Gabriel had left to do, or whether messing with the Rift was even part of his plan, or just something that happened. The idea that he'd been trying to go home had crossed Seth's mind. The idea that he was trying to end his life had not.
It's hard to reconcile this with his experience with Gabe. Seth is not unfamiliar with being suicidal, not at all, and you'd think having been there himself, he'd be able to recognise it in a friend, but apparently not. That idea that he had so completely missed this fills him with guilt. And the thought that Gabe hadn't come to him for help kind of hurts, though he'd never admit it, and it actually takes him a little by surprise that he should feel that way.
Part of him knows there's no use thinking like this, but it's difficult to stop himself. He forgets to even answer Johnny, though his demeanor probably speaks for itself.