"I'm sorry," says Johnny quietly. "That you had to... you know. Hear about it like this."

Seth hasn't said a word, but Johnny feels like he can understand exactly what's going on. It was completely shattering for him, to know that Gabriel was even vulnerable to that level of hopelessness. He's angry at himself for not seeing it, having been down that road so many times. He's hurt that Gabe didn't stick around and try to talk to him, or anyone, instead of making so concerted an effort to just be gone, with no last word. The last time they'd spoken it had been bitter. Johnny's horrified to think it was almost the very last time.

"I haven't really had a chance to... you know, talk to him about it," he says awkwardly. "We kind of tried not to focus on it yesterday. But I felt like you should know."