lottawork: (life isn't ur goddamn photoshoot rush)
Nicholas Rush ([personal profile] lottawork) wrote in [community profile] bigapplesauce2015-06-13 04:32 pm

what's mistaken for closeness is just a case for mitosis [closed]

Waking is not, historically, what Rush would regard as a favored activity. He is where he always is after being unexpectedly beset upon by sleep's inevitable grasp. The floor is solid and bracing, forming an aching spandrel between that plane and the paralleled arch of shoulders and spine. His skull is no longer the fractured mess it was, in reality left smooth and whole.

The entirety of the Rift's irritating, interfering traversal through the less fondly remembered aspects of his own past is etched into the anterior of his mind, still frames printed behind closed lids. He grinds the heels of both palms into his eye sockets with a fierce, fervent energy, as if it would be possible to scrub away the echo of that experience through execution of pressure alone.

He wonders how much of the dream's content is plausibly dismissible, an idea whose own plausibility he dismisses. Asadi was always too smart for direct obfuscation; it was what he liked about her, what he has continued to appreciate and value about her, but intimacy with one's past as exposed by the Rift is the unfortunate lead-in to a conversation he is certain they will be required to have and would prefer not to have, with her or anyone.

He is also aware, however, that he has been left very little in the way of personal autonomy in relation to that choice. Particularly since his latest endeavor in becoming more deeply acquainted with neuroanatomy has ground to a lamentable standstill, and to best acquire a more extensive knowledge base he will have to be - considerably more hands-on.

Fuck.

The trip to Asadi's apartment passes in its own dull-edged, lateral blur, instructions snapped out briskly to an unlucky taxi driver until he arrives, disheveled and recently woken and completely uninvited. It does not occur to him until after he has rung for her repeatedly that this may be potentially construed as socially unnatural or unacceptable, but he has already set certain events in motion and must see them to their uncertain conclusion.
ofschrodinger: (Ginger)

[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-20 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
The cat crouched comfortably atop the refrigerator remains stock still apart from the gentle curling back and forth of its tail. It does not even seem to acknowledge at first that one of the apes at the table has turned to look at it, but continues to stare past Rush at Iman -- more specifically, at the dead prosthetic attached to her shoulder. When it does glance at Rush it looks at him only momentarily, not particularly concerned by his presence at present.
etherthief: (wait whaaat)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-20 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
His silence, though it's to be expected, just makes things weirder, so she's looking down at the table when Rush's hands suddenly go still, and she looks up in confusion before following his gaze and startling abruptly.

"What the-" she blurts, stiffening. For a brief moment the question is 'how did a cat get into her apartment' until, pretty immediately, it becomes 'that is not a normal cat what is this thing'.

"Um..." she says slowly, looking at Rush, eyes wide and trying to silently communicate what do we do?
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[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-20 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
I have been...observing you, yes, replies the cat, though there's no outward, physical sign that the voice they hear in their heads comes from the furred body. Who else would it be, though? It doesn't elaborate, but fans out its whiskers as it leans forward and asks, You intend to repair her?
etherthief: (destitute | miserable)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-20 03:48 pm (UTC)(link)
"I definitely did not acquire it on purpose," she says, failing to sound as even as he does. She watches him nervously as he addresses the cat which obviously isn't a cat, does he know what it is? She sure as hell isn't expecting it to reply.

"Ffshit," she hisses, jerking back in her chair. In their heads, no less. She assumes Rush 'heard' it too.

Repair her.

Like she's a thing.

Okay.

Uncharacteristically she doesn't really have any vitriol rise up, nothing stored. She just sits there, feeling a little smaller, like yeah, you're right, magic cat, this is stupid, it's not going to work, it's useless and we should probably just not do it at all.

It's sickening, how easy it is to bring her to that point now.
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[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-20 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
The cat thinks this over, still not moving. Still forgetting to move. Permissible, it decides. But I will not be so lenient if you make another attempt to interfere with...

What is the word? Even in their heads these creatures require words, and the cat lashes its tail in frustration as it grasps for the knowledge of how to express what it means. The concept is as familiar as anything can be, but the word --

Ah, that's right. It is a little word, difficult for its insufficiency. With the Rift, it concludes.
etherthief: (falling apart | no no no)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-21 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Iman goes very, very still.

Not so lenient. Another attempt.

This cat - this thing it is speaking on the Rift's behalf.

She feels like a little girl being chided, as she often was, for 'trying too hard.'

She sits like stone, now staring at the table, frightened and cowed, because though it was clear she was being punished for overstepping the boundary, she never expected to actually hear it talk to her.

She wraps her trembling fingers tightly around the still-warm coffee mug like an anchor.
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[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-22 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
The cat blinks in surprise and finally pushes itself upright, tilting its head at the little apes before it. No, it says, curious as to Rush's meaning. I do not understand. What is it you believe you can do to me?
etherthief: (oh shiiiiit)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-22 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Iman looks up sharply, staring at Rush, hair prickling all over her arms. What is he doing, what is he saying? He won't be so lenient? What's he going to do, does he honestly think he poses any sort of threat to this thing? Does he think saying something like that won't make him an automatic target? He's just casually poking a fucking beehive.

The cat is equally bewildered, coy and questioning, and her shoulders stiffen as she pushes her chair back and stands. "Rush," she says, somewhere between warning and shocked. "Shut up."
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[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-23 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
For the first time, the cat uses its physical voice, letting out a feline growl that does not befit its dignity. This form can be so lacking at times. It would not be difficult to damage you beyond repair, it says sharply, because it wouldn't, it really wouldn't. You do not understand how gentle I have been.
etherthief: (goddamnshitfuck)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-23 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
"No," she says sharply, and walks around to put herself between Rush and the cat, facing him - much as she wants to talk back, tell the creature if it fucking dared to do anything to him she'd - well, what could she do, really, and therein lies the problem. She resists putting her hand on Rush's shoulder, though she half-reaches for him on impulse. "Don't you fucking get yourself killed. Not on my account. Don't you dare."
ofschrodinger: (Ginger)

[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-23 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
What would be the purpose? asks the cat, ears flat in irritation. It still does not understand -- that is, it understands that this laughably tiny being is insulting it, but it does not understand the purpose of the insult. There is a purpose behind every exchange, or there should be.
etherthief: (you are the literal worst)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-23 06:01 am (UTC)(link)
Iman keeps her eyes fixed on Rush (because she doesn't dare look at the stupid cat), a complicated mess of expressions flickering across her features; she's tense, furious with him for playing the agitator so soon after they both witnessed the Rift's idea of 'gentle punishment' - she's desperate to redirect things, angry with herself for not fighting back alongside him. She's grateful for his, what, his dedication to her - the casual declaration of her 'importance' - sure. But that's a low priority in the grand scheme.

"This is inadvisable," she hisses to him, her one hand drawn into a tight fist.
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[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-23 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
You are capable only of -- the cat has to stop and search for a word again, one sufficiently diminutive, --annoying me. The repercussions would all be yours.

This was not its purpose in coming here. It does not care for these micro-interactions the way certain of its counterparts do. No, the purpose was to investigate the aftermath of an escape attempt, and the cat abruptly refocuses its blank gaze on Iman. You are correct, it informs her. The...pathways...you would have exploited are gone. You will not attempt it again.
etherthief: (hdu | fuck off | frustrated)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-23 06:20 pm (UTC)(link)
She shrinks slightly, left helpless and frustrated as they continue to talk around her, Rush continuing to be a stupid shit - she presses her hand to her face, peering between her fingers at the cat-creature.

"You can't cage and torture people without expecting them to try to escape," she says quietly. "That was your first mistake. Your second one being that you're trying to tell him what to do."
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[personal profile] ofschrodinger 2015-06-23 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I can, argues the cat, because it can and it did. It's not the cat's fault these creatures are so unreasonable. Can they not see that they belong to it? It really is quite a simple matter.

I will do as I please with you, it decides.
etherthief: (intrigue | defiance | whoa now)

[personal profile] etherthief 2015-06-23 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
She stares at him, eyes wide and maybe a little terrified in addition to impressed. She'd be saying the exact same shit if their roles were switched, she knows that.

And as scared as she is, as much as she's felt the sting of the Rift's wrath, nothing will make her demur when told explicitly that she belongs to something else.

So she turns on the cat, allowing herself to be bolstered by Rush's absurdly overconfident assertion, as well as bolstered by his general presence. "We are not your things," she says coldly. "And we are going to find a way out."

They are both making an immense gamble with an entity which, as Daniel's example has shown, can kill them at any moment, for no reason at all. And they're essentially giving it one. They are jointly assuming that they are interesting enough specimens that it will not destroy them completely; and they are hoping, too, that it will continue to underestimate them.

Let it do what it will, she thinks, reckless and afraid.

She needs a drink. No, fuck that. They just essentially declared war on a sentient spacetime entity. She needs, like. Thirty goddamn drinks.

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